I came across this chart at another blogger’s site – here – and thought it really interesting. It’s quite a simple chart, but I found it helpful. Here is his explanation –
“Plotting a point on a chart
I have described myself as a “heterosexual crossdresser”, but this description does not give the reader any idea as to what I do when I participate in this activity. It could be, as I have mentioned before, as little as wearing nylons under my guy pants or as extreme as spending much of my free time fully dressed.
Here is an idea I have been playing with. A simple x,z chart. The horizontal x-axis is a measure of the frequency that one dresses. The vertical y-axis, a measure of dressing intensity. This chart would be for the use of those like myself, hetero-CD’s (don’t worry if you don’t fit this chart, I’ll explain later to be more inclusive).
Example 1 would be someone completely made up maybe only once a year. Example 2 dressed all the time as a full woman, ready to move off this chart and onto something else. 3 could be someone just experimenting with crossdressing and example 4, wearing something like panties all the time because they are comfortable. Most of the time I fall into the A box with the occasional time spent in the B box. Someone who was able to spend pretty much every weekend fully dressed would be in box C and maybe if you could just wear a blouse and skirt or a few other articles of feminine attire every week or two, they would be in box D. Or to put it another way (in terms of X,Y) I’m a hetero CD X2Y10. The partly dressed weekend CD, X7Y5.”
Perhaps the distinctions that this chart can help us make aren’t really necessary, but maybe they could prove useful in how we think about our crossdressing and how we are similar or different to other crossdressers. It could help with questions like – Why do crossdressers go down different trajectories on this chart? What experiences or will or biological makeup shape which direction we go?
I wonder if less frequency of dressing means that it has more to do with sexual pleasure. Someone who wants to be a woman would maybe dress more often, whereas someone just getting a quick sexual release would probably stop after the sexual release each time. Then again, when you are addicted to sexual pleasure it makes you want to dress every day. And this also doesn’t fit for those who wear panties all the time, who don’t masturbate while doing so, who also have no desire to be a woman. I don’t know. At least I am confident we can say that somebody in box 3 is not really much of a crossdresser, or at least not an addicted crossdresser like I was. Maybe they would be someone leaning in a transgender direction and just experimenting. And then somebody in box 2 is beyond the addicted crossdresser and rather going in the direction of a sex-change. Anybody else have thoughts?
For me, I started dressing rarely with a single item, a dress. From that time on, the frequency ramped up like crazy. Pretty soon it was an every day thing. The amount of female attire was added more gradually but still relatively quickly. It’s hard to quench those desires for wanting more. After a while, I was dressing all the time, and trying to dress as fully as I could each time. I don’t know where I would have ended up because during those years of frequent dressing I never had opportunity for giving free reign to my desires because of other people around. As I continued to crossdress off and on over the next 10 years or so, I continued to thirst for more fully dressed experiences, which could not happen quite to the fullest degree because of my limited alone time. I even thirsted more and more just to wear female clothing all the time without the sexual pleasure. More and more I desired to wear female clothing for days on end without needing the sexual pleasure of it. I thought about living as a woman in the future.
Thank you Lord for rescuing me from this crossdressing bondage. Without my family and friends, without God working in my life, throughout my whole life, I have no doubt that I could easily have ended up have getting a sex-change by this point. At the very least, crossdressing would have become a serious force in my life and with it I would never have had the wonderful wife I have today, and all the great opportunities God has given me.
Interested to know where others of you fall on this chart, and any thoughts you have about it…..