Can God deliver me from crossdressing?

Can God heal you or cure you from crossdressing?  Yes I believe he can.  Let me explain.  I believe God can heal us from this perversion in at least two or more ways.  The first way is the way that I have experienced.  This way is the gradual healing of our hearts and minds over time.  To define it, let me tell you my story.

Several years ago God gave me the strength to totally stop crossdressing.  Well, I actually think God had always given me that strength, but I just finally chose to trust him that he would help me stop.  Once I believed that I could stop with his help, I stopped.  It was as simple of that.  But over the past years, God has gradually worked more and more healing into my heart and mind.  The temptations were very strong and hard at first.  I had stopped crossdressing but I still craved it strongly.  But the longer I stayed steadfast and didn’t give in, the less strong the desires became.  Today once in a while the desires creep up, but largely they are no longer existent at all in my normal life.  I can look at my wife’s clothing and have no thoughts of crossdressing at all.  I can enjoy intimate time with her and only think about her.  Female clothes have lost their magical quality.  Clothes add to the beauty of women in a natural way, but they have ceased being a powerful fetish object.  I can hold my wife’s underwear when doing the laundry and not have any strange thoughts about putting them on.  I dream much more about sex than I used to, rather than only dreaming about crossdressing.  God has seemingly even cleansed out my mind, making me forget much of the crossdressing stories and images I have looked at over the years.  Would I say I am “fully healed?”  No I would not.  I reserve that for the time when I never have the least desire to ever again look at a crossdressing photo or thought.  While that is true most days, there is still the occasional time every couple months when that desire creeps up.  Those temptations are easy to dismiss at this point, but it would be dishonest to claim that I am fully healed when that still happens at times.  But the point is that I am far more healed than I was a couple years ago.  The amount of healing God has done in my mind and body and soul is significant, significant enough that I actually feel like a different person.  I have never felt more free.  I am no longer a slave to that addiction.  I am so much happier and joyful in my life than a few years ago.

 

The second way that I believe God can heal us from this perversion, is an instantaneous healing of our heart and body.  This I did not experience, but of course, it must be possible!  I realized recently that I am not giving God enough credit in my blog posts.  I only talk about the gradual healing and I set people up to expect that God won’t completely heal them.  I set people up to expect that they will always have these crossdressing desires till the day they die.  But who am I to limit God?  Who am I to limit the God that created the Heavens and the earth, the God who created Neptune and Saturn, the God who made this vast beautiful world that we live on just by speaking?  Who am I to say that God can’t take away someone’s crossdressing desires, the same God who raised people from the dead?  Of course God can do this!  This is the same God who convicted me of my sin, cultivated faith in me, gave me salvation through Jesus, and transformed my heart making me a child of God.  Of course God can change our hearts and minds.  He has done it for countless people throughout history and in Scripture.

So no longer do I want to limit God on this blog.  Will God always heal a crossdresser instantaneously?  No.  In fact, I think he usually will not.  Usually I think he will heal a person slowly through the long hard work of discipline, changing life habits, trusting in Him, empowerment by the Holy Spirit, accountability from the church community, dwelling on His Word, asking for help through prayer, and seemingly endless repetitive times of confession and thanksgiving for forgiveness.  This seems to be the normal way God heals people from sinful addictions, whether that be alcohol addiction, drug addiction, food addiction, television addiction, pornography, or crossdressing.  But even if that is the normal way, we should still keep on asking God for this immediate healing.  God has given these kinds of immediate healings to many kinds of addicts.  While most Christian homosexuals have to struggle with same-sex attraction for the rest of their lives, there are a few of whom God has miraculously healed them and taken away their same-sex attraction.  There are former drug addicts who were prayed for and released from addiction without going through long sessions of rehab and relapses.

So why wouldn’t we ask God for this healing ourselves as crossdressers?  I guess if God speaks to you, (which I believe he can still do), and tells you that your healing will be gradual and not instantaneous, than you should stop asking for the instantaneous miraculous healing.  But if not, you might as well keep on asking for that miracle. Don’t sit around and do nothing while praying that God heals you in that way. Start doing the hard work of the gradual healing process.  But while you do that hard work, ask God to heal your heart, your mind, and your soul.  Ask him to deliver you from crossdressing.

And then leave the results of your prayers up to God.  Don’t be discouraged if you don’t see immediate clear results.  God will answer your prayer and heal you to make you more like Jesus.  But he will answer it in the way he sees fit, according to his good plan for your life.  Romans 8:28-30  28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 29 For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters. 30 And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.

God is able deliver us from bondage to crossdressing.  He can heal us.  He can take even our memories of our pasts and heal us from past wounds, and fill us with his love to the point that we no longer need crossdressing because we are so content with his love and purposes in our lives.

He will either heal you all at once, or he will heal you gradually as he has done for me.  He WILL respond to your prayers and work in your life.  We need to have faith.  But what kind of faith?  Not faith in ourselves.  Not faith that we know the future, and know exactly and specifically what God will do and when.  But faith in God.  Faith that God is powerful and can do anything.  Faith that God loves us and desires our good and wants to help us overcome sin and bondage.  And faith that God in his infinite wisdom knows the best way and the best time and the best method to give us the healing that we need.

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4 comments on “Can God deliver me from crossdressing?

  1. Paul Samson says:

    Hi Thorin,

    Thanks for this post. I found it really encouraging and a great motivation to continue to say no to crossdressing. I’m sure that the reason God works gradually is because he is as concerned about developing a close relationship with us as he is about dealing with the sin of crossdressing. It’s in the process of trusting him that we experience him more deeply.

    Paul

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  2. thorin25 says:

    Good point Paul. The slow change has definitely drew me closer to God, rather than if he just changed me instantly years ago. Thank for the comment! I appreciate your thoughts on my posts.

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  3. thorin25 says:

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