I will not google that

In relation to my last post about doing whatever it takes to quit crossdressing and fight temptation, I did a writing exercise that was helpful to me.  A television show reminded me of how kids used to do the discipline activity of writing something like “I will not hit my sister” 100 times on a piece of paper.  Such an activity I think is helpful because it really ingrains the idea in your head.

Recently, I looked at websites about crossdressing that I should not have looked at.  I repented and enjoyed God’s forgiveness and moved on.  But I did not want it to happen again, so I did this writing activity to help me be more vigilant when it comes to the internet and crossdressing.  Especially I want to be more vigilant around google and not searching for things that might seem harmless, but will lead me down a wrong path.  I thought writing this phrase out – “I will not google that” 100 times would be helpful for ingraining that idea in my head.  I’m not sure if I reached 100 times, but it turned into a wonderful devotional activity in the process, and a good reminder of why I don’t want to fall back into crossdressing or looking at crossdressing websites.  I highly recommend this writing activity.  Below is a sample section from my activity.

I will not google that
I will not google that.
I will not google that.
I will not google that cd filth
I will not google that cd rubbish
I will not google that stupid fiction
I will not google those perverted stories
I will not google those flickr pictures
I will not google that art
I will not google story filth
I will not google that perverted sin
I will not google this toxic stuff to my soul
I will not google pictures of women celebrities
I will not google pictures of women
I will not google pictures of men
I will not google pictures of clothes
I will not google seemingly harmless phrases
I will not google any cd fiction which is all trash
I will not google anything without a purpose
I will not google trying to find sinful things to fill my mind
I will not google in an addictive state ruining my life
I will not google and waste all the time in my life
I will not google that
I will not google that
I will not google that
I will not google anything about CD
I will not google CD filth
I will not google CD drawings
I will not google CD photos
I will not google when I am home alone
I will not google dresses that were not made for me
I will not google that which will rot my soul
I will not google that which will put me in bondage
I will not google that which will make me feel pain
I will not google that which will make me feel regret
I will not google that which will make me want to vomit later
I will not google that which will make me disappoint my God
I will not google that which will make me add to the sins Christ had to bear
I will not google that which will make me lose a battle
I will not google that which will make me break my victory streak
I will not google that which will disappoint my accountability partner
I will not google that which will disappoint my prayer group
I will not google that which will fill my mind with horrid images
I will not google that which will confuse my body’s sexuality
I will not google that which will bring rot to my soul
I will not google that which will pull me farther away from God
I will not google that which will pull me farther away from my wife
I will not google that which will make me hear God’s voice less well
I will not google that
I will not google that
I will not google that
I will not google that
I will not google that
I will not google that
I will not google that evil filth
I will not google that stuff I Hate
I will not google that stuff that filled my life with bondage for so many years
I will not google that and become a slave
I will not google that and go back to slavery
I will not google that and confuse my sexuality
I will not google that and read about such nasty things
I will not google that and waste all of my time
I will not google that and waste all my time looking for wholesome CD stories because there aren’t any
I will not google that
I will not google that
I will not google that no matter what
I will not google that no matter how much it entices me
I will not google that no matter if I am alone and can delete my history
I will not google that no matter how much my body wants it
I will not google that just because I want sexual pleasure
I will not google that because I want to masturbate
I will not google that
I will not google that
I will not google beautiful women instead of desiring my wife
I will not google women to lust after which is adultery
I will not google any women to lust at which is adultery
I will not google any people to lust at which is adultery
I will not google pictures of CD men to lust at which is homosexuality
I will not google pictures of any people to lust at which is messed up
I will not google any kind of crossdressing fiction because its all so nasty and wrong
I will not google that
I will not google that
I will not google that
I will not google that
I will not google any of that rubbish
I will not google that which I know God does not want me to
I will not google that because I know that is what is best for me
I will not google that because I know that God’s will is best
I will not google that because when I don’t google that I am always happiest
I will not google that because when I don’t, I am free
I will not google that because I know God gives me the strength not to
I will not google that you stupid devil
I will not google that because I am going to be victorious
I will not google that
I will not google that because I am the Lord’s child
I will not google that because I have the Holy Spirit living in me
I will not google that because God loves me
I will not google that because I am a man of God
I will not google that because I am a leader of God’s people
I will not google that because I have the promise of eternal life
I will not google that because my joy is full because of God’s salvation
I will not google that because God is my all in all and all that I need
I will not google that because God is my joy and my treasure
I will not google that because Jesus is coming back again to make me new and change my desires
I will not google that because God is with me, always.

I will not google that. I am free.

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10 comments on “I will not google that

  1. Alec says:

    Thank you for posting this, too many people deny it as a sex type of addiciton though pretty good evidence that it is.

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  2. I should try this, but I need to add “facebook” to the sentence.

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  3. Bob burnquist says:

    Hey there is nothing wrong with crossdressing. The only thing that’s wrong is the public view that has been contorted by pointless religions. If there was a god and he loved everyone then why the hell would he give a shit if you wore a skirt or what ever. You shouldn’t preach your garbage and should lend a better hand to society than your religious homophobic a assery. Clothes are clothes and it’s doesn’t make a damn difference whether it’s pink or green or hugs the figure or not. Oh while we are on the topic let’s all look at women that were pants and tell them it’s wrong. And ha Jesus wore a efin dress. And worst of all you religious people follow a book that shrugs off rape it’s like wtf were people thinking.

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  4. thorin25 says:

    Bob, before criticizing someone you should actually read what they said. You are terribly ignorant. If you would have read my blog you would see that me and countless other men have not just given up crossdressing because of what God thinks, but because it was destroying our lives. Anything that is destroying your life is not simply harmless fabric that just happens to be a different color. Do some research about crossdressers. As soon as you start talking to crossdressers you will realize that it is not “just clothing” for them at all. At least I have an opinion about crossdressing that is based on knowledge rather than your opinion which is on something you clearly know absolutely nothing about.

    Further, I actually have written that I think it’s okay for women to wear pants. You would know this if you read my posts before needlessly trolling and making stupid statements. I believe culture gradually changes, including clothing. Jesus did not wear a dress, but yes he wore something sort of like it as was appropriate for men of that time and that specific culture.

    I’m sorry that you have such hatred of God and Christians. But we don’t need your hatred here. I wish you the best, but please refrain from further comments.

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  5. Bob burnquist says:

    Based on knowledge eh. I am a crossdresser. So lol

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  6. Bob burnquist says:

    Oh and the whole god thing I’m a eclectic pagan that doesn’t belive in a higherpower.On the topic of it hurting their lives how? Look I’m married and my wife likes it she believes that it takes a certain confidence to be able to break gender boundries. The other men are probably insecure about their bodies and are scared of what their significant other thinks. My point is that those people should keep doing it and find someone that will love them for them and not leave them for something as harmless as crossdressing. The only ways that crossdressing can harm someone is if they choke them selves on a bra strap, over spend because they want to get more clothes ( which crossdressing wouldn’t be to blame it would be the person has a spending problem), and lastly a group of highly intolerant people just beat him to death for crossdressing.

    My point is that it is harmless. As long as you aren’t allergic to the fabric. Now I will listen to you point. How does it ruin people’s lives

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  7. thorin25 says:

    If you remain civil, you can keep commenting.

    Pardon my assumption, but I figured a real crossdresser would realize that there is more going on than simply choosing fabrics and colors that fit your preferences. I suggest you do some soul searching and think about what causes you to do what you do.

    As an aside, do you also frequent Rehab centers and tell people to stop trying to fight their addictions? You do realize that is what you are doing here.

    Here is a summary (read the linked arguments for the real details) of why I see it as harmful.
    https://healingcd.wordpress.com/2013/07/08/summary-of-why-crossdressing-is-sinfulharmful/
    I’d prefer if you don’t take issue with my points unless you read the articles linked to, and not only the summaries.

    If you don’t want to take my word for it that crossdressing is harmful (at least to some people), you can ask these guys –
    Look in the comments. https://healingcd.wordpress.com/email-prayer-chain/

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  8. Bob burnquist says:

    Look all I’m trying to get accrossed for all these people and you is that there is no reason to view it negatively. If someone enjoys crossdressing they shouldn’t be scared or frightful and hating ones self. They should be happy and they should be willing to accept their self. Also a firm base of friends that accept you for who you are is important too. As for it being an addiction. My question is why would you classify it as such.
    What’s really funny is how all these views started blue and pink were associated with gender until the 1930s. Earlyer than that men were the ones that wore thongs. Many cultures men wore skirts “kilt”, he’ll in Victorian Era such as Shakespeare. Women were not alowed to be in plays so the men would dress up as them.
    As for me I don’t even really consider it crossdressing anymore it’s just I like this I’m going to wear that today. Now whether it’s a nice pair of blue jeans or a skirt it just matters to me how hot it is outside and whay I feel like wearing for that day. It doesn’t even effect my life… well other than the occasional hmmm which thing do I want to wear.

    Just remember there is nothing wrong with men and femininity. And you don’t have to be gay to crossdress. Just find a better more reliable group of friends that will support you and you support them.
    BTW I don’t know how you could give up satin underwear it just feels so amazing

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  9. Bob burnquist says:

    The best part of it all is that I was in the usmc and still dressed. I was a grunt. And lived in the barracks.

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  10. thorin25 says:

    Bob, you asked me why I view it as negative, and then you just give me another speech about why it is fine. Did you even read the posts I gave you the links for?

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